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06:29pm 11/01/2005
 
mood: curious
is anyone here..still reading this?
 
     

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01:45pm 14/02/2003
  TrolIop: why do girls sleep all day after you bang them all night/
TrolIop: ?
PigTatersSoTasty: trollop, because you drugged their drink?
TrolIop: yeah
Iustcoil: AHAHHAHAHH!!!!!!!
Iustcoil: thats great
 
     

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-=you are a diseased goddess who lovez to corner werewolvez=-   
11:39pm 05/02/2003
  hmm

well i just cleaned miss bella'z cage
she's all happy and pouncing around my room..
gonna go feed her in a couple minutez... let her work up a lil bit of an appetite-

adam is still @ practice
we were talking before and he blurted out that he hatez it when im sick..
i act so careless and mean.. and he feelz like he's alwayz striking out with me ..

so that explainz the lack of anything.... he was walking on eggshellz around me and i had no clue.
poor baby..

<333333
gave bella some applesauce/turkey and guava

mmmmm

i havent eaten anything really in a couple dayz... just soup and some bread...
it's like i have no taste....
anything i eat tastez the same .....
and my appetite is barely an appetite anyhow..

god... this flu is ruining me.
=(

grrrrrr

eeek baby is calling!

If you are a hooker, I already sent the money. If you are my parents, please send money. If you are my financial aid institution, you didn't lend me enough money. If you are my friends, you owe me money. If you are a girl, don't worry, I have plenty of money.
 
     

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04:30pm 15/12/2002
  music: Led Zeppelin - "Misty Mountain Hop"
The complete itinerary for the "4 Absent Friends Tour", featuring OPETH, LACUNA COIL, PARADISE LOST and TAPPING THE VEIN, has been released.

Presented by Guitar World, the trek named after a track on OPETH's recent album "Deliverance" will feature the Swedish band in the headlining slot, with main support coming from LACUNA COIL. PARADISE LOST and TAPPING THE VEIN will open the proceeding every night.

"4 Absent Friends Tour" dates are as follows:

Jan. 17 - Montreal, QUE @ Foufounes Electriques
Jan. 18 - Worcester, MA @ Palladium
Jan. 19 - New York, NY @ Irving Plaza
Jan. 21 - Springfield, VA @ Jaxx
Jan. 22 - Philadelphia, PA @ Trocadero
Jan. 24 - Toronto, ONT @ Opera House
Jan. 25 - Cleveland, OH @ Agora
Jan. 27 - Chicago, IL @ House of Blues
Jan. 29 - Boulder, CO @ Fox Theatre
Jan. 31 - San Francisco, CA @ Slims
Feb. 01 - San Diego, CA @ The Scene
Feb. 02 - Phoenix, AZ @ Mason Jar



you assholez... why not florida????
fuck yer noize.
 
     

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06:55am 13/12/2002
  Subj: Personal Letter
Date: 12/13/2002 7:34:13 AM Eastern Standard Time
From: bgego22@yahoo.com
To: lustcoil@aol.com
Sent from the Internet (Details)



Asking Urgent Coperation

Dear Madam,

I am writing to you this letter with mixture feelings
as we dont know you before. My name Bryn Gego, son of
late Mr. Michael Gego; who was Director in Gold &
Daimond Mining Corp of Sierra Leone before army forces
to Major Paul Koromah killed him. My father was one of
the people target by the rebel army and other big men
were taken to unknown places.

Two days before his death, he managed to hide us a
leter, saying his condition and telling us one trunk
box which he has deposit in a bank storage through a
security company in the another country Ghana. Though
the box contain a huge money of US$95 million, he has
regestered it to be family treasure for secirity
reasons. He wrote me and my mother to leave quickly to
Ghana for his condition is hopeless.

The, ECOMOG army came in to stop the situation of mass
killing. After it become a full war and after a few
days we hear my father and many others have been
suferred and killed and we find ourselves in very bad
condition as everybody was running for his life. My
mother has suffered big depreshion since and this is
making the hipertension worst.

We finally escape to Ghana safely with the deposit
documents over the box. We contacted the
company and they agreed the documents we have is
correct. But due to we are refugees we cant take the
money for investment here as much negative eyes will
follow us. We want to travel away from here to invest
the money and start new life another place. So now we
look for someone abroad to help us collect the box and
put the money in his account abroad.Can you help us?

I want you to help us claim the box from the bank
storage and get the money into your account in your
country so that we can invest the money wisely. We
will to trust anybody who honestly assist us. We will
agreed on your reward if you agreed willing to help.
We wait quick answer becaus conditions in the camp
here is not good at all and we lack money to buy what
we need. And my mothers sickness is really making me
to fear. So I am almost alone now in this world. I
hope that god will make you to help us at this moment.
Thank you in advance.
Best regard.

Bryn Gego(and Blessing Gego)
 
     

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06:02am 11/12/2002
  "made me laugh 'til my fallopians fell out onto my foot. i wasn't wearing slippers, so i started laughing even harder."  
     

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01:14am 10/12/2002
  LustCoil [12:59 AM]: you're a moron
-moron-[12:59 AM]: wtf
 
     

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01:09pm 02/11/2002
  20: Fuck God DO iT! Scenarios of the
Revolution by Jerry Rubin

A dying culture destroys everything it touches.
Language is one of the first things to go.
Nobody really communicates with words anymore.
Words have lost their emotional impact, intimacy, ability to shock and make love.

Language prevents communication.


CARS LOVE SHELL
How can I say
"I love you"
after hearing:
"CARS LOVE SHELL."


Does anyone understand what I mean?
Nigger control is called "law and order." Stealing is called "capitalism."

A "REVOLUTION" IN TOILET PAPER.
A "REVOLUTION" IN COMBATING MOUTH ODOR!
A "REVOLUTIONARY" HOLLYWOOD MOVIE!
Have the capitalists no respect?

But there's one word which Amerika hasn't destroyed.
One word which has maintained its emotional power and purity.
Amerika cannot destroy it because she dare not use it.

It's illegal!

It's the last word left in the English language:

FUCK!!!

One bright winter day in Berkeley, John Thomson crayoned on a piece of cardboard "FUCK WAR," sat down with it and was arrested within two minutes. Two more people sat down with signs saying "FUCK WAR." They were arrested.

The Filthy Speech Movement had been born.

Everyone at school plays with himself verbally. The Free Speech Movement ended our virginity--we challenged outside society and the cops came on campus to get us. But once they left, everybody went back to playing with himself.

Once you've had sex, jacking off is a drag. Campus sexual frustration led John to start the Filthy Speech Movement.

"Nobody would have gotten excited if I held a sign which said 'Kill Vietnamese.'" John said. So he said "FUCK WAR" and four mighty letters brought the Great University to a Grinding Halt.

Old people everywhere freaked out. "Fuck man, is this what Free Speech is coming to?" Fucking Clark Kerr the fucking president of the fucking university fucking resigned. He said the fucking future of the whole motherfucking university was at stake. Fuck him, he's a fucking asshole. He said that if FUCK wasn't fucking banished from the minds and mouths of the fucking students, then things were gonna get pretty fucked up.
But most political radicals got uptight and wouldn't defend FUCK. Activists in the Free Speech Movement ostracized the FUCK-heads---they said FUCK wasn't "serious"! They got a sudden pure speech fetish.

Things did get fucked-up. In a unity move, Clark Kerr came back and fucked the fuck students. They were expelled from the university and given jail terms. Few politicos gave a fuck.

The Free Speech Movement was raped in the same bed with the Filthy Speech Movement. The movement was badly divided. It was an early sign of the split between political radicals and the hippie/yippies.

How can you separate politics from sex? It's all the same thing: Body Politic.


POLITICO-SEXUAL REALITY: The naked human body is immoral under Christianity and illegal under Amerikan law. Nudity is called "indecent exposure." Fuck is a dirty word because you have to be naked to do it. Also it's fun.
When we start playing with our "private parts," our parents say, "Don't do that." The mother commits a crime against her child when she says "Don't do that."

We're taught that our shit stinks. We're taught to be ashamed of how we came into the world--fucking. We're taught that if we dig balling, we should feel guilty.

We're taught: body pleasure is immoral!
We're really taught to hate ourselves!

Puritanism leads us to Vietnam. Sexual insecurity results in a supermasculinity trip called imperialism. Amerikan foreign policy especially in Vietnam, makes no sense except sexually. Amerika has a frustrated penis, trying to drive itself into Vietnam's tiny slit to prove it is The Man.

The revolution declares war on Original Sin, the dictatorship of parents over their kids, Christian morality, capitalism and supermasculinity trips.

The yippie political strategy is to ally with Billy Graham. Keep the word "fuck" dirty! At the same time we yippies fight for the right to say fuck whenever we want to. It's a contradiction--but in contradictions like this lie the genius of making a revolution.

Our tactic is to send niggers and longhair scum invading white middle-class homes, fucking on the living room floor, crashing on the chandeliers, spewing sperm on the Jesus pictures, breaking the furniture and smashing Sunday school napalm-blood Amerika forever.

We will do whatever is forbidden.
We will outrage Amerika until the bourgeoisie dies of apoplexy.
We will turn Amerika's colleges into nudist camps.
We will find new ways of living together and raising our kids.

GOD IS A
YIPPIE!

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Thought
 
     

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01:08pm 02/11/2002
  20: Fuck God DO iT! Scenarios of the
Revolution by Jerry Rubin

A dying culture destroys everything it touches.
Language is one of the first things to go.
Nobody really communicates with words anymore.
Words have lost their emotional impact, intimacy, ability to shock and make love.

Language prevents communication.


CARS LOVE SHELL
How can I say
"I love you"
after hearing:
"CARS LOVE SHELL."


Does anyone understand what I mean?
Nigger control is called "law and order." Stealing is called "capitalism."

A "REVOLUTION" IN TOILET PAPER.
A "REVOLUTION" IN COMBATING MOUTH ODOR!
A "REVOLUTIONARY" HOLLYWOOD MOVIE!
Have the capitalists no respect?

But there's one word which Amerika hasn't destroyed.
One word which has maintained its emotional power and purity.
Amerika cannot destroy it because she dare not use it.

It's illegal!

It's the last word left in the English language:

FUCK!!!

One bright winter day in Berkeley, John Thomson crayoned on a piece of cardboard "FUCK WAR," sat down with it and was arrested within two minutes. Two more people sat down with signs saying "FUCK WAR." They were arrested.

The Filthy Speech Movement had been born.

Everyone at school plays with himself verbally. The Free Speech Movement ended our virginity--we challenged outside society and the cops came on campus to get us. But once they left, everybody went back to playing with himself.

Once you've had sex, jacking off is a drag. Campus sexual frustration led John to start the Filthy Speech Movement.

"Nobody would have gotten excited if I held a sign which said 'Kill Vietnamese.'" John said. So he said "FUCK WAR" and four mighty letters brought the Great University to a Grinding Halt.

Old people everywhere freaked out. "Fuck man, is this what Free Speech is coming to?" Fucking Clark Kerr the fucking president of the fucking university fucking resigned. He said the fucking future of the whole motherfucking university was at stake. Fuck him, he's a fucking asshole. He said that if FUCK wasn't fucking banished from the minds and mouths of the fucking students, then things were gonna get pretty fucked up.
But most political radicals got uptight and wouldn't defend FUCK. Activists in the Free Speech Movement ostracized the FUCK-heads---they said FUCK wasn't "serious"! They got a sudden pure speech fetish.

Things did get fucked-up. In a unity move, Clark Kerr came back and fucked the fuck students. They were expelled from the university and given jail terms. Few politicos gave a fuck.

The Free Speech Movement was raped in the same bed with the Filthy Speech Movement. The movement was badly divided. It was an early sign of the split between political radicals and the hippie/yippies.

How can you separate politics from sex? It's all the same thing: Body Politic.


POLITICO-SEXUAL REALITY: The naked human body is immoral under Christianity and illegal under Amerikan law. Nudity is called "indecent exposure." Fuck is a dirty word because you have to be naked to do it. Also it's fun.
When we start playing with our "private parts," our parents say, "Don't do that." The mother commits a crime against her child when she says "Don't do that."

We're taught that our shit stinks. We're taught to be ashamed of how we came into the world--fucking. We're taught that if we dig balling, we should feel guilty.

We're taught: body pleasure is immoral!
We're really taught to hate ourselves!

Puritanism leads us to Vietnam. Sexual insecurity results in a supermasculinity trip called imperialism. Amerikan foreign policy especially in Vietnam, makes no sense except sexually. Amerika has a frustrated penis, trying to drive itself into Vietnam's tiny slit to prove it is The Man.

The revolution declares war on Original Sin, the dictatorship of parents over their kids, Christian morality, capitalism and supermasculinity trips.

The yippie political strategy is to ally with Billy Graham. Keep the word "fuck" dirty! At the same time we yippies fight for the right to say fuck whenever we want to. It's a contradiction--but in contradictions like this lie the genius of making a revolution.

Our tactic is to send niggers and longhair scum invading white middle-class homes, fucking on the living room floor, crashing on the chandeliers, spewing sperm on the Jesus pictures, breaking the furniture and smashing Sunday school napalm-blood Amerika forever.

We will do whatever is forbidden.
We will outrage Amerika until the bourgeoisie dies of apoplexy.
We will turn Amerika's colleges into nudist camps.
We will find new ways of living together and raising our kids.

GOD IS A
YIPPIE!

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Thought
 
     

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-=emotional receipt from my trip=-   
09:32am 26/09/2002
 
mood: teary
I saw my mother after our fall out.
I suppose we end up forgiving the person with love the most but never forgetting how much hate she put me through.
I saw a side to her that the alcohol didnt touch.
I felt like my mother was here again, in my world.
It was a breaking feeling, I was falling yearz behind my age to immaturity,
filling up the points that she had abandoned.
And I forgave her for the moments that were black and smothered by her doing.

She smiled, she looked like me.
I noticed how brittle her hair was, the lines had gotten deeper in her face...

The realization of a parent getting old hurts. The security of them alwayz being there for you, to baby you, crackz. Of course her problem made her age faster and that makez me so pissed off, because she did this to herself.

I admire my friend Cyn so much now, she lived through losing her mother.
I dont think I have that much strength, thinking about it now makes my eyez burn and get puffy.

Like already when I think of something I want my mother to hear I write it down and think about how I'd say it to her and what not. Just b.c it's hard to get her ass on a phone anyhow, plus, they're very trivial things. Like when Im out driving and I think of something, sometimes in my head Ill be talking to her.

I cant say how many timez I've held a situation between me and her in my mind. Later on when we're actually talking I'll bring it up and sometimez it'll consort into exactly what I had imagined.

I never want to just be limited to the conversations in my head. It would drive me insane. It doesnt help that me and her are as open as much as possible as we can be with each other. It's like there's no more we can go.... we've reached a content communication with each other.... a calm before the storm.
Like God saw the end coming and said we could finally have a chance to understand each other before hell breaks loose.

I guess I'm bizarre like that. I wonder why it's so wonderful and remember about when it was once so bad...and how we've gone through the entire cycle and there's nothing left.

Im just so scared that Ill never be able to bring myself to the strength like Cyn. That when my mother goes, the one person in the world that is everything to me, than my mind is gonna go too. It will be too much for me to process. I see myself snap and have no reason in life.
Yeah I put that much into my mother.

I probably have a complex of some sort for loving someone too much where I worry about how I will go on when they die.

Maybe wondering it about it now and preparing myself for the worst pain in the world sets me ahead a lil bit. I just keep thinking, "not enough"

Not enough time
Not enough talks
Not enough smiles
Not enough sorrys
Not enough FUCK YOU's
Not enough "CLEAN YOUR ROOM"s
Not enough climbing into her bed when the nyte gets too possessing
Not enough 6 am mindless mornings
Not enough visits
Not enough sobriety
Not enough hugs
Not enough Thank you's
Not enough money
Not enough "mommydaughter dayz"


I'll be okay until that day...

I dunno wut will happen to me after it though. I will lose all capabilities... and this world expectz you to move on, to turn with the planet to a new day and start over so fast. After anything really....
Not enough time.
 
     

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12:58am 05/09/2002
 
look how hot rot is????
is that even possible???
someone cant be THAT hot and nice at the same time right?
lol
i adore ya babe
-grin-
 
     

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-=i didnt know that=-   
05:17pm 26/08/2002
  LustCoil [4:47 PM]: hi =)
LooKaTheStaRz [4:47 PM]: hello
LustCoil [4:48 PM]: i saw the guestbook got signed again- and you were on.. im a lil bored just sitting here workin on that damn site... just wondering if all the linkz worked for you and stuffz
LooKaTheStaRz [4:48 PM]: oh yeah.
LooKaTheStaRz [4:48 PM]: im just having trouble with the clips..
LustCoil [4:48 PM]: are you on dial up?
LooKaTheStaRz [4:48 PM]: yeah
LustCoil [4:48 PM]: that's why-
LooKaTheStaRz [4:49 PM]: that blowz.. what do you need?
LustCoil [4:49 PM]: i basically make my site and adamz' site dsl oriented
LustCoil [4:49 PM]: just a faster connection
LooKaTheStaRz [4:49 PM]: ooh ... who are you?
LustCoil [4:49 PM]: kaylah'
LooKaTheStaRz [4:49 PM]: are you his wuman?
LustCoil [4:49 PM]: lol
LustCoil [4:49 PM]: yea
LooKaTheStaRz [4:49 PM]: seriously?
LustCoil [4:49 PM]: ...yeah
LooKaTheStaRz [4:50 PM]: he didnt tell me this.
LustCoil [4:50 PM]: we've been together since jan.
LooKaTheStaRz [4:50 PM]: O_O
LustCoil [4:50 PM]: ya dont sound pleased..
LooKaTheStaRz [4:51 PM]: cauz i would liked to have known this..
LustCoil [4:51 PM]: why
LooKaTheStaRz [4:51 PM]: wait. im so lost.
LooKaTheStaRz [4:51 PM]: im not gonna say anymore until i talk to him again
LustCoil [4:51 PM]: uhm.... wutz going on?
LustCoil [4:52 PM]: this is giving me a really bad feeling....
LustCoil [4:52 PM]: can you tell me wutz going on please?
LooKaTheStaRz [4:52 PM]: no dont worry woman.
LooKaTheStaRz [4:52 PM]: nothing happened.
LustCoil [4:53 PM]: ok then why are you lost?
LooKaTheStaRz [4:53 PM]: cauz he didnt tell me he had a gurlfriend.
LustCoil [4:53 PM]: and nothin' happened between you guyz?
LooKaTheStaRz [4:54 PM]: no
LustCoil [4:54 PM]: wow you had my heart all the way up there in my throat lol
LooKaTheStaRz [4:54 PM]: lol sorry.
LooKaTheStaRz [4:54 PM]: but im just weirded out.. cauz i talked to him like 2 seconds ago and he said he didnt have a gurlfriend.
LustCoil [4:54 PM]: he said he didnt have one?
LooKaTheStaRz [4:55 PM]: that he doesnt want a relationship cauz hes always so busy... and he would feel sorry for the gurl.. so he has lil relationships here and there
LooKaTheStaRz [4:55 PM]: so im in bit of a shock O_O
LustCoil [4:55 PM]: hmm
LooKaTheStaRz [4:56 PM]: are you sure?
LooKaTheStaRz [4:56 PM]: lol... are you sure youre together. haha dumb question.
LustCoil [4:56 PM]: dude.. ive been with him since jan. he wantz to get my name tattoo'd on his ring finger. he sayz he lovez me
LooKaTheStaRz [4:56 PM]: O_O !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LustCoil [4:57 PM]: i just paged him
LooKaTheStaRz [4:57 PM]: haha me too
LooKaTheStaRz [4:57 PM]: i want to know whats going down
LooKaTheStaRz [4:57 PM]: oh shyt.
LustCoil [4:57 PM]: well if he told you all that... im more than a bit pissed with him
LooKaTheStaRz [4:57 PM]: wait.
LooKaTheStaRz [4:57 PM]: dont tell him i told you
LooKaTheStaRz [4:57 PM]: oh shyt.
LooKaTheStaRz [4:57 PM]: fuck yo
LooKaTheStaRz [4:57 PM]: i didnt wanna start anything
LustCoil [4:58 PM]: well if he's telling you all that... must mean he likez ya or something and i dont like liarz so you can just have him
LooKaTheStaRz [4:58 PM]: but i just met him.. within weeks.
LooKaTheStaRz [4:58 PM]: i dont like liars either. thats why im wondering whats going on
LooKaTheStaRz [4:59 PM]: tell me when youre talking to him
LustCoil [4:59 PM]: i am
LooKaTheStaRz [4:59 PM]: oh no
LooKaTheStaRz [4:59 PM]: what is he saying?
LooKaTheStaRz [4:59 PM]: what are YOU saying
LustCoil [5:02 PM]: he denies it.
LooKaTheStaRz [5:04 PM]: now he just calle dme bitchin
LooKaTheStaRz [5:04 PM]: saying that im starting shyt. umm.. yeah. i guess i didnt know everything. i wish you wouldnt have imed me... im really sorry.
LooKaTheStaRz [5:04 PM]: he just told me that he loves you and yeah... pretty much yelled my ear off.
LustCoil [5:04 PM]: i wasnt trying to start anything as well...
LooKaTheStaRz [5:05 PM]: im so sorry
LooKaTheStaRz [5:05 PM]: omg. what guys do to gurlz. its amazing.
LustCoil [5:05 PM]: mmhmm
LooKaTheStaRz [5:05 PM]: i hate men. im officially a lesbian. its gone over the edge too much lately
LustCoil [5:06 PM]: why did THIS make you a lesbian
LooKaTheStaRz [5:06 PM]: i just hate men!
LooKaTheStaRz [5:06 PM]: theyre so terrible. they make me feel like shyt. he just made me cry dude. yelling my fucking ear off.
LooKaTheStaRz [5:06 PM]: fuck that.
LustCoil [5:07 PM]: im sorry
LooKaTheStaRz [5:07 PM]: are you talking to him?
LustCoil [5:07 PM]: yea
LooKaTheStaRz [5:07 PM]: you seem so nice too. im sooo sorry for putting you in this mess... all for signing a guestbook.
LustCoil [5:08 PM]: i just wanted to see how the site was working on someone that just went there.
LooKaTheStaRz [5:08 PM]: and look what it turned into!
LustCoil [5:08 PM]: yea
LooKaTheStaRz [5:08 PM]: what a beautiful day gone bad.
LooKaTheStaRz [5:09 PM]: gone terribly wrong!
LooKaTheStaRz [5:09 PM]: what shyt is he talking now?
LustCoil [5:14 PM]: not at all. we're just talking
LooKaTheStaRz [5:14 PM]: omg.
LooKaTheStaRz [5:14 PM]: he relly made me sick.
LustCoil [5:14 PM]: im sorru
LooKaTheStaRz [5:14 PM]: i would have barfed if i had food in me.
LustCoil [5:14 PM]: im sorry&
LooKaTheStaRz [5:14 PM]: dont worry. i should be the one thats sorry.
LustCoil [5:14 PM]: it was really miniscule
LooKaTheStaRz [5:14 PM]: actually he should
LustCoil [5:15 PM]: for saying that?
LooKaTheStaRz [5:15 PM]: for everything he does.
LustCoil [5:15 PM]: whoa...
LooKaTheStaRz [5:15 PM]: youre a good person.
LooKaTheStaRz [5:16 PM]: and im gonna shut up
LooKaTheStaRz [5:16 PM]: i wish you well. and im sorry
LustCoil [5:17 PM]: im sorry too-
LustCoil [5:17 PM]: bye
LooKaTheStaRz [5:17 PM]: bye
 
     

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-waiting in the dark-   
05:14pm 24/08/2002
  confusion causing latching
stranger fingerz entwine
a new pain snatching
pulling a sickness of mind
alone was the torment
inching itself close to me
in an unmoving lament
invisible decisionz seethe

pieces of the cherished
are too much to hold
splinter my skin
garish and cold

I dont bleed for you
I dont need for you
to keep scarifying
and terrifying
my ragged heart
I can fall apart
on my own
just fine alone.

Trembling cordz of sound
taking gazes down
waiting for the closure
to this minuet of torture

a selfless expectation
appealing litigation
you would even fashion
humor me and listen

how beautifully
you crumble reality
a brutal dance
of a surviving chance

I dont bleed for you
I dont need for you
to keep scarifying
and terrifying
my ragged heart
I can fall apart
on my own
just fine alone.

on my own
on my own
 
     

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07:55am 15/08/2002
  mikhaila, you're a Movie Star!

Your personality is actually determined by two personality sub-types your primary, or dominant sub-type, and your secondary sub-type. You are a Movie Star which means you are a Golden / Success. Your primary sub-type is defined by "Golden" characteristics and your secondary sub-type is defined by "Success" characteristics.

That means you're a bright ray of sunshine who secretly wonders why you're not famous yet. Chances are you don't get annoyed with people very easily, and you can handle stressful situations with grace. As if all that weren't enough, you're friendly, charming, and great with people.

How do we know all this? How do we know that you like making your work environment cozy and hospitable? Or that you spend a lot of time on your appearance? How could we have divined that you never shy away from asserting your ideas and opinions, and encourage others to do the same?

Because while you were taking the test, you answered four different types of questions questions that measured confidence, apprehension, willingness to take risks, and your focus on experience versus appearance the primary traits that determine your personality. Based on your responses, we determined your personality type, Movie Star.

mikhaila, your sexual personality is Omega-ELDN-10.

Your sexual personality is determined by your sexual persona (Omega), 4 sexual scales (Emotional/Physical, Look/Touch, Daring/Modest, Verbal/Non-verbal), and your libido score (10).

As an Omega, you are someone who feels sexy, looks sexy, and really knows the ropes when it comes to lovemaking. Your sex appeal is more overt than others and your sexual confidence and awareness are particularly high.
 
     

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on   
11:01pm 08/08/2002
  Rivet 0n a Stick: They say that when it snows.. It's god's angels passing mouthfuls of semen back and forth.
MiztressRae: wtf
 
     

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-take a tranquilizer and a walk-   
03:10pm 10/07/2002
 
mood: curious
Well I've woken up.
After my phone ringing all morning.
Jennifer called-
Tania called and was like "Hey, do me a website!" I adore her. She rawkz my submissive cawk.
She's Mistress Kayla. =)
Adam called and woke me up around 6.
He's got me in that giddy mood again..... that you get before you're actually with someone.. and you cant wait to see them... and think of it so often you get butterflies...
It's July and I still get butterfliez. *gigglz*

ARGH!@ HICCUPZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had a weird dream. I was saying goodbye to all my animalz in NC. Simon was there. Strong and beautiful-faithful. Grunter was there. Just the opposite lol.
I hated leaving MeanDog. My egyptian eyed boy. I loved that dog.

Ive been thinking how nice it'd be to go back.
It's really some heartbreaking nostalgia.

I hate when dreamz have that effect on you.

Jody is asleep in the living room. Gotta check if Bella ate her melon.

hmm... not that much of it. I constantly worry about her.

She's so cute right now- curled up in her black lace. She likez it when she's half asleep and i scratch her head and earz. When I stop she lookz up and bearz her teeth and then I do it again and she putz her head back down.
Sometimez making those satisfied Clicking or grunting soundz.

_swoon_!
die of cuteness.

Adam sayz that when we live together, we can have a place FULL of sugargliderz!

I had a dream before that I went to Bellas' cage and there were like 7 other gliders and I couldnt tell which one was bella.. It was so upsetting to me.
Wut could that mean? I've had it like 3 timez already-
anyone do dream interpretation?
 
     

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08:27am 29/05/2002
 

Wut excuse could I possibly use?
Sick, Insane, Falling asleep.... something. Must call home and get out of here I cant do this.
 
     

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